Lately Ive been having strAange unspeakable nightmares. this may be funny to you because it is a bit funny NOw .....that im awake? anyways here it goes:I was going to leave & go onto the buses for the winter retreat.i said goodbye to my mom ect. there were two buses one greyhound and the one i got on WHITE justt plain WHITE.for some ungodly reason i picked the WhITe one.when i got on i was holding a puppy, my puppy apperntly.
i made my way to the back of the bus like always & SOME GUY was in my seats with his legs sprawled across everywhere creating a barrier that i was determined to break.(a girl likes challenges ok?) besides the seats across from \us were theft by the football jocks,,,,and im not dealing with those dumbasses AND THEY WERE PRETTY DUMB. anyways i put my gaze back on this guy, i dont remeber what he looked like or his name for some reason after i woke up so just keep in mind that his name will be GUY lol...anywayz...i made my way around the path of luggage and got the the seat blocked by his legs and feet besided him. i said "exscuse me? do you mind if my puppy sits beside you"?he said no. i sat my puppy down and it ran away. i was devastATED lol
* shrug*
OBVIOUSLY i was too MUCH IN TOUCH WITH MY EMOTIONS.haha in the back of my head the whole time i was thinking this was just a dream and that its not real.after the water works i sat down beside him.illl give you 6 dollars if you go away he said i looked at him he was holding a plastic bag inside it was what looked like seasoning. he started putting the brown stuff that looked like seasoning all over the money . tearing the one dallor bill in half. EXCUSE ME! i said obviously pissed and ready to order OFF WIth your head any moment. THATS MY MONEY YOU JERK!
he didnt say anything i finally noticed the whole bag that started to have a bitter scent. WHAT THE FUCK IS THAT?! i asked in disgust. its my .....devils.....drug..unfourtunately thats all i remeber about his responce was those words i was so mad that i could care less anymore. then he sneezed and the stupid drug went all over my new favorite shirt!
THATS IT YOU CAN KEEP THE 6 DALLORS & A HALF IM LEAVING i said but, he was too busy doing his seasoning. i walked toward the open bus door. thinking maybe none will notice or think it was food spill or something. Im no tattle tell and what he does will only effect his life not mine cause i wasnt planning on getting invovled. i walked out my shirt reeked smelling like cigarettes salt and pepper mixed to gather i let a frown paste itself on my face. out side of the camp which i dont remeber the name of we all waited for the other people to get of the bus while waiting for further instructions from our camp leader/teacher.IT seemed like everyone from school was there.
i looked around at all the groups i saw amanda crying over something that i obviously didnt care about..i seen that one girl that used to come to my first seamester 3rd lunch table with the glittery eyes...
i saw fuzzy...meaker..eric..robert...nikki & her group ectt. yup everyone was here but in the bottom of my mind i knew I WASNT.Im YOur new teacher ...THAT GUY said....WTF? hes our teacher & he was getting high off seasoning in the back of the bus? i was thinking.WE ARE DOOMED i mumbled. he showed us to each cabin place.we had free time to walk around ect.
he grabbed me with everyone else gone.his nails digging in my arms skin.STOPIT DUMBASS YOUR HURTING ME.i said DON'T TELL ANYONE WHAT HAPPENED IN THE BACK OF THE BUS GOT IT? he said.I WASNT PLANNING ON IT. NOW LET ME GO YOU PHYSCO, I KICCK HIM AND HE LOOSENED HIS GRIP STILL HOLDING ME THO...IM NOT ONE TO FUCK WITH HE SAID,,, WELL ME EITHER BUT YOU ALREADY FUCked YOUR CHANCE WITH ME I REPLIED
Don't expect me to go to prom with you now. i said
he dropped me aggravated and i just laughed.
later one i saw courtney derryberry talking to him they were totally undeniably flirting i pulled her aside taking her into the girls room. ARE YOU DELUDED? i exclaimed why are you wasting your time on that low-life?! hes dangerous!.
i made my way to the back of the bus like always & SOME GUY was in my seats with his legs sprawled across everywhere creating a barrier that i was determined to break.(a girl likes challenges ok?) besides the seats across from \us were theft by the football jocks,,,,and im not dealing with those dumbasses AND THEY WERE PRETTY DUMB. anyways i put my gaze back on this guy, i dont remeber what he looked like or his name for some reason after i woke up so just keep in mind that his name will be GUY lol...anywayz...i made my way around the path of luggage and got the the seat blocked by his legs and feet besided him. i said "exscuse me? do you mind if my puppy sits beside you"?he said no. i sat my puppy down and it ran away. i was devastATED lol
* shrug*
OBVIOUSLY i was too MUCH IN TOUCH WITH MY EMOTIONS.haha in the back of my head the whole time i was thinking this was just a dream and that its not real.after the water works i sat down beside him.illl give you 6 dollars if you go away he said i looked at him he was holding a plastic bag inside it was what looked like seasoning. he started putting the brown stuff that looked like seasoning all over the money . tearing the one dallor bill in half. EXCUSE ME! i said obviously pissed and ready to order OFF WIth your head any moment. THATS MY MONEY YOU JERK!
he didnt say anything i finally noticed the whole bag that started to have a bitter scent. WHAT THE FUCK IS THAT?! i asked in disgust. its my .....devils.....drug..unfourtunately thats all i remeber about his responce was those words i was so mad that i could care less anymore. then he sneezed and the stupid drug went all over my new favorite shirt!
THATS IT YOU CAN KEEP THE 6 DALLORS & A HALF IM LEAVING i said but, he was too busy doing his seasoning. i walked toward the open bus door. thinking maybe none will notice or think it was food spill or something. Im no tattle tell and what he does will only effect his life not mine cause i wasnt planning on getting invovled. i walked out my shirt reeked smelling like cigarettes salt and pepper mixed to gather i let a frown paste itself on my face. out side of the camp which i dont remeber the name of we all waited for the other people to get of the bus while waiting for further instructions from our camp leader/teacher.IT seemed like everyone from school was there.
i looked around at all the groups i saw amanda crying over something that i obviously didnt care about..i seen that one girl that used to come to my first seamester 3rd lunch table with the glittery eyes...
i saw fuzzy...meaker..eric..robert...nikki & her group ectt. yup everyone was here but in the bottom of my mind i knew I WASNT.Im YOur new teacher ...THAT GUY said....WTF? hes our teacher & he was getting high off seasoning in the back of the bus? i was thinking.WE ARE DOOMED i mumbled. he showed us to each cabin place.we had free time to walk around ect.
he grabbed me with everyone else gone.his nails digging in my arms skin.STOPIT DUMBASS YOUR HURTING ME.i said DON'T TELL ANYONE WHAT HAPPENED IN THE BACK OF THE BUS GOT IT? he said.I WASNT PLANNING ON IT. NOW LET ME GO YOU PHYSCO, I KICCK HIM AND HE LOOSENED HIS GRIP STILL HOLDING ME THO...IM NOT ONE TO FUCK WITH HE SAID,,, WELL ME EITHER BUT YOU ALREADY FUCked YOUR CHANCE WITH ME I REPLIED
Don't expect me to go to prom with you now. i said
he dropped me aggravated and i just laughed.
later one i saw courtney derryberry talking to him they were totally undeniably flirting i pulled her aside taking her into the girls room. ARE YOU DELUDED? i exclaimed why are you wasting your time on that low-life?! hes dangerous!.
i warned.
i even told her about the drugs.
I CAN TELL THATS DRUGS AND NOT FOOD ON YOUR SHIRT YOU KNOW?
HOW?! I SAID.
WELL ONE WAY IS IT IS WIND IS BLOWING FREQUENTLY TODAY AND IF IT WASNT DRUGS IT WOULD HAVE BLOWN AWAY ITSELF.
I was aggravated whatever
HOW?! I SAID.
WELL ONE WAY IS IT IS WIND IS BLOWING FREQUENTLY TODAY AND IF IT WASNT DRUGS IT WOULD HAVE BLOWN AWAY ITSELF.
I was aggravated whatever
i said go back out there to
your new boyfriend.i really wanted to get rid of her
didnt care how she was nawing at the edge of my nerves.
i pulled of that shirt and put on a nice clean one jumped into bed woke up ....dead bodies all around in the lake blood everywher....my body started to tremble...i was falling onto the ground...then i heard someone board the white van..people were leaving that included meaker out of curiousity i asked WHERE ARE YOU GOING? WHAT HAPPENED? he shrugged and said I GOT INTO TROUBLE SO THEY ARE SENDING ME AWAY.
oh im sorry i said.
the doors closed i waved goodbye to everyone.
then i realized i was ALONe except the
i pulled of that shirt and put on a nice clean one jumped into bed woke up ....dead bodies all around in the lake blood everywher....my body started to tremble...i was falling onto the ground...then i heard someone board the white van..people were leaving that included meaker out of curiousity i asked WHERE ARE YOU GOING? WHAT HAPPENED? he shrugged and said I GOT INTO TROUBLE SO THEY ARE SENDING ME AWAY.
oh im sorry i said.
the doors closed i waved goodbye to everyone.
then i realized i was ALONe except the
dead bodies and physco cause
of the bodies i was abandoned. HOW COULD I BE SO STUPID?
i started to cry then i saw my sister and started running towads her when i reached her i ASKED CAN I USE YOUR PHONE CHRISSY I HAVE TO CALL MOM.
NO. she firmly said.
i couldnt understand i couldnt fathom of all times exspeacially this.
the killer was getting closer i closed my eyes.
opened them again white...walls...white everything white.
i dont think shell ever wake up the voice belonging to my mother said...im so sorry chrissy (sister) said i should have told mom that you hit your head...Her voice faded out and they were leaving me..i wanted to stop them to scream at them but nothing came out not even tears i tried and failed i felt hopless and alone in a room of horrible white.
i looked at the bracelet i knew where i was..an insilum.
I WOKE UP AGAIN
i started to cry then i saw my sister and started running towads her when i reached her i ASKED CAN I USE YOUR PHONE CHRISSY I HAVE TO CALL MOM.
NO. she firmly said.
i couldnt understand i couldnt fathom of all times exspeacially this.
the killer was getting closer i closed my eyes.
opened them again white...walls...white everything white.
i dont think shell ever wake up the voice belonging to my mother said...im so sorry chrissy (sister) said i should have told mom that you hit your head...Her voice faded out and they were leaving me..i wanted to stop them to scream at them but nothing came out not even tears i tried and failed i felt hopless and alone in a room of horrible white.
i looked at the bracelet i knew where i was..an insilum.
I WOKE UP AGAIN
& here i am typing ...
but what if im really not?
what if i really am in
an insilum all along ?
and this is...
..EVERYTHIING
i made up?
im lost.
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